It’s been a strange week. I knew it was coming and yet I still feel caught off guard. I am a jumble of mixed emotions, a complex composite of hope and anxiety, fear and faith.

This week I sent out my newsletter and talked about feeling both/and emotions. It is tempting to let one feeling gain control. To allow fear to fuel my actions and preoccupations. Or to ignore the pain and hold onto hope, diminishing others experiences around me by not engaging.

And so I walk slowly forward into both/and. Both hope and sorrow. Both fear and faith. I will attempt not to rush one for the sake of the other. I will attempt not to compromise others’ experience for the sake of relief or comfort. I will rest in the push and pull of this moment right now.

How are you feeling?